Small Delights!

Well I can't sleep. I think I just need to wind down a little, but nonetheless, I can't sleep which means I'll blog instead.

A pretty amazing thing happened today. I got an email from UTD stating that my financial aid has been adjusted to reflect my graduation in December. This means they are giving me more money! YAY! It's amazing how God knows exactly what he's doing and when to do it. Gotta love him!

On top of that, I got my grad announcements yesterday which makes everything seem even that much closer! I can't wait to get them all sent out, but first I need to get a picture taken. Thanks to the coolest friend ever I should have one by Sunday! Kady's going to take my pics for me and I'm so thankful for that! Gotta love her too!

AAAAANNNNDDDD, Scott got me tulips the other day! I LOVE getting flowers, well any gifts for that matter, but flowers are great. I know it seems girly and all, but I love that Scott thinks of me at random times. There was no special occasion, or argument that required flowers, I got them just because. The absolute best kind of flowers to get! Not only did I get flowers, but was surprised by them twice. He brought one to me at Josh and Mindie's (that was good enough), and then I got home and there were even more! Wonderful Husband....Gotta Love him A LOT!

Moral of the story, I'm trying to live my life one day at a time and enjoy the little things that happen everyday. I am so blessed. I have a great family, an AMAZING husband, great great friends, & most importantly a great GOD! I just need to slow down and give God control of my life again! It's hard not to want to grab the steering wheel of life every once in a while, but riding along with God brings peace.

P.S. can't wait for Indian food and Christmas shopping tomorrow!

AMAZING GOD!

Wow! So I teach the 5th & 6th graders at church on Sunday mornings. This morning, Jacob (the children minister's son), passed out these cards that had some encouraging phrases on them. He held them face down and had each kid pick one randomly. After everyone was done picking their card, he gave the LAST one to me. I looked at it and almost cried. This is what it said:

Trust in HIS timing
Rely on HIS promises
Wait for HIS answers
Believe in HIS miracles
Rejoice in HIS goodness
Relax in HIS presence

If you read the post before this, you might understand why this was so powerful to me. Every single one of these "things to do" related to me. While all relate to me, two really stood out. First, Believe in HIS miracles. I think I really struggle with BELIEVING god will perform miracles in MY life. I have the faith that he CAN do it, and even believe he WILL do in others' lives', but where I fail in my faith is believing he will do it in MY life. God has performed many miracles in my life, but at this point, I have a hard time believing he's going to do something else great in my life. Maybe I'm not thankful enough, or faithful enough, but I just don't believe. Currently, I'm having a hard time believing I could actually get a great job after graduation, and that Scott could get a great job. Whatever the reason for my disbelief (is that the word I want to use here?), I want to change. I want to believe God will do good things in my life. I want to believe he is going to provide me a great job after graduation, and guide me down the right path from here. I want to have the faith of a mustard seed that has the ability to move mountains! Maybe this is just normal "jitters" when one graduates from college, but I don't want to be NORMAL. The second one that really stood out to me was "Relax in HIS presence". I have been a "worry wart" ALL of my life. I was asking my dad when I was 6 about our financial situation because I thought we might run out of money. I definitely don't relax in HIS presence. Honestly, I'm not sure I would know how. How do you relax in the presence of God? I want to, desperately. Are there any practical answers to this question? When I figure it out I'll let you know, but for now, all I know to do is pray.

I'll get to it later...I want it NOW!

Okay, so I've always been a procrastinator, but not this bad...EVER! I have a bad case of senioritis. I'm usually pretty good at keeping up with my reading, homework, etc., but this semester has been terrible. All I can think about is graduating...which is normal for seniors...right? Well, I'm definitely ready, but what next. I thought I was going to PA school, but now I'm looking into nursing. First, I want to get a "real" job, so I can work on paying off debt. There are so many things to think about and I think my solution is to put everything off until tomorrow.On top of all that, my husband, Scott, wants a new job so that he can be more involved in building community & finding his "ministry". I feel like I'm in this dark hallway and the light is right there at the end, not even two feet away, but no matter how much I try to move forward I can't get there. I know it will come soon enough (in God's time), but I am a selfish, impatient, human, and I want it NOW! I know this is wrong, but right now this is how I feel. I am working on being more patient with God, and taking life one day at a time.

P.S. I need a new title for my blog page...any ideas?

Here I am.

Okay so Scott wanted to make me a blog, and he started blogging, so I guess I can too. I probably won't actually spill my heart out until tomorrow, but my page looked really pathetic with nothing on it. So there you have it. I guess I can officially call myself a blogger now. Be back tomorrow.