Well I've been thinking lately about what I'm going to do after I graduate. I want to get a job (to start paying off the little bit of debt we have), but it seems sooooo overwhelming looking for one. I'm not even sure what/where to look. Then I keep thinking about the fact that if I get a full time job, I won't be able to sleep in and spend the day with my husband when he has them off. See with the job I'm at now, I can take the day off...no biggie. I don't want to lose that flexibility and freedom. I want to be able to sleep in sometimes on weekdays, not get up everyday at 6 or 7 o clock to go to work for 8 - 9 hours. I think I'm starting to realize I don't really want to graduate...crazy huh??? Don't get me wrong I can't wait to have that diploma in my hand and walk across the stage with those most important to me there for support, but at the same time I want it to end there. I want to make money and start a family, but when I think about the work and time I am giving up...I start to have second thoughts. Really it's time with my husband that I'm losing the most of. He generally works evenings and I will be working days....everyday! When will I see him?? Hopefully he can get a new job soon too!
Then, there is trying to figure out higher education. I plan to go to nursing school and then get my doctorate in nursing...AAAAAAHHHHHHHH! Right now my head feels like it is about to explode and I feel like I vomiting words onto this page. I feel conflicted and I'm not sure what to do :-( Hopefully God will answer prayers soon! Until then, I wait...on HIM....and search for a job.
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