the one with the song.

Just a few thoughts I've had this week:

I hate being sick. HATE it. Especially when there is no end in sight. Hopefully soon.

I miss my sister... A LOT!

Why is that when someone is struggling with something, other people want to comfort you by telling about other peoples struggles. Let me explain. My sister is going through something terrible. She is rebelling against everything she was ever taught...pretty much. Anyway, my grandmother proceeds to tell my mom of another girl my sister's age who is going through the same thing. Then says, I thought it would make you feel better to know that someone else is going through the same thing. AHHHHH! Why does it make us feel better to know that other people are hurting too?? Why do we want other people to go through the same pain?? Shouldn't we hope that others wouldn't have to go through that?? I think it is good to hear success stories. Those would make me feel better, but to know that someone else is in the same situation just makes more sad for them. I feel like I'm not really making sense, but I hope I made some sort of point. Hopefully.

Being sick this week I haven't been thinking so much about my current job situation and stuff. I think I've been trying to avoid it, which is probably going to suck when it surfaces, but I do love this song. Everytime I sing it, I feel like it is affirming everything I feel. The fear of the unknown, beyond my comfort zone. I think that pretty much sums it up.

Francesca Battistelli Lyrics - I’m Letting Go Lyrics

My heart beats, standing on the edge
But my feet have finally left the ledge

Like an acrobat
There’s no turning back

Chorus
I’m letting go
Of the life I planned for me
And my dreams
Losing control
Of my destiny
Feels like I’m falling and that’s what it’s like to believe
So I’m letting go

This is a giant leap of faith
Trusting and trying to embrace

The fear of the unknown
Beyond my comfort zone

Chorus
I’m letting go
Of the life I planned for me
And my dreams
Losing control
Of my destiny
Feels like I’m falling and that’s what it’s like to believe
So I’m letting go

Giving in to your gravity
Knowing You are holding me
I’m not afraid

Feels like I’m falling and that’s what it’s like to believe
Feels like I’m falling and this is the life for me