He is the Potter, I am the clay

I was thinking this morning on my way to work about how I really have no clue what is happening next as far as whether I'm going to get another job, go to nursing school, or what. And, I realized God is teaching me something...what? I don't know yet. But, I know he's teaching me something. Perhaps, it's to trust in him more (something it seems like I am constantly having to learn!), or maybe it's something completely different. It's very weird for me (Type A, anal retentive personality) to not know the plan. I have a plan. I know what I want. I don't know if it is going to happen that way though. I guess I never know how things will happen, even when things are going according to MY plan, but this time....I have NO CLUE! So I know it seems this is the same thing I have talked about for the last few posts, but hang in there. So, this morning when I was thinking about it I wanted to slap myself because I realized, who better to be in control of my life than the person who knows me better than I know myself. And so what if I don't get to go to nursing school, or PA school, or med school. Maybe God has a totally different plan for me. I think I'm afraid to give into his plan because I feel like I will be disappointing other people, but really the only person that matters is God! I can't disappoint him if I follow his will...right? I think I'm beginning to find comfort in knowing that God is in control. As hard as it is for me to give up that control, I know he will do what is best for me if I let him.

I have in no way shape or form figured out how to give that control to him completely, but I want to, and I will continue to pray for him to continue to work in me!